I'm jealous of everything. I'm not sure what happened to me these few weeks but I tend to feel jealous easily.

I'm jealous of those having so much fun despite being so stressful.
I'm jealous of those having so many friends who care for them.
I'm jealous of those becoming prettier and more handsome.
I'm jealous of those being loved by the loved ones.
I'm jealous of those travelling around the world.
I'm jealous of those getting so much attention.
I'm jealous of those getting so successful in life.
I'm jealous of those studying in overseas.
I'm jealous of those getting prizes.
I'm jealous of those getting rich.
I'm jealous of those....
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Suddenly, I feel empty deep inside my heart. I feel like everyone is leaving me. I feel like everyone do not want to care about me anymore. As if they want me to disappear from their sight.

I hate thinking of how people will think of me. Either good or bad. But I can't stop thinking about it. I'm way too sensitive on this issue. I know I can't please everyone but I still try to do that. And that left me lifeless now. I know I shouldn't act like that. I need some time to forget about everything and move on. I should be more open.

I'm just me, myself. I'm not anyone so don't expect me to act in the way you wanted me to. I can't do that anymore.

Arghh.. I hate emo-ing. I hate doing this but I really can't help it anyone. I'm so sorry if I annoyed you guys. You can just ignore me.