Today is the the worst day I had in my entire life. The day I thought I will have a wide smile on my face turned out to be a disaster. Tears keep flowing down whenever I think about it.

I supposed to hand up my OBU yesterday. After my mentor reviewed it, he told me to defer since the chances of me passing is only 40%. If I did my amendments, I got 50% chance. So, I insisted on continue doing the amendments with the hope that it will get better. But then, this morning, after checking my amendments, the chance of passing is still 50%.

So, I make up my mind to defer my OBU. It is the hardest decision to make since I had put a lot of effort in it. I don't feel like giving up and waste all my effort. But I don't dare to take risk because the consequences is that if I fail and resubmit again, I will get C no matter how well I redo it. This means that my first-class degree is gone.

Now, to make sure that I will not regret making this decision, I have to get an A and get hold of the first-class degree.

I'm so thankful to have a bunch of friends who are so supportive and not to forget, my family too. They are my angels. I might not be here without them. Oh ya!! I want to thank God for blessing me. Failure is the start of something and not the end of something. LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!!

Now, I need to work my ass off. 3 weeks, 3 professional papers. I hope I can do it. NOOO. I have to do it.